On Hi's and Hello's

Honestly, I don't like bumping into people into places. Definition of "people": persons from your past life who are not really very close to you. In short, just plain acquaintances. I don't like the idea just because I can't decide whether or not to greet that person. And I would really be glad if that person made the first move. Coz it's just not me...if y'know what I mean.

A few weeks ago, I bumped into "somebody's" sister at the mall. Luckily, she said hi first. And I appreciate it a lot not only because she made the first move but also because it was a very warm greeting. It's like hearing her say, "Come here, I could give you a hug". And just yesterday, "somebody" finally greeted me. We haven't been talking like adults since 3 years ago and I couldn't really figure out why. And I also appreciate the fact that he greeted me first. I have been subconsciously, intentionally (?) ignoring this person just because he wouldn't break the wall that has grown between us. We would find ourselves staring at each other and pretending to be looking far away. Or even sit next to each other but refuse to utter a single word. It is weird to even listen to him speak to me. I don't really mind. I have no issues or baggages with me. I just wish we could have exerted more effort to be friends again. Coz if I were okay with that person, I'd really love to say "Hi".

"Nabubulag ka na, hindi mo na ako nakikita"

Is It Just Me or Is It The Movie?

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Tonight, I took my Tita Irene and my Li'l Cuz Ryan to the cinema. Actually, I'm not really a big fan of the movies. I'd only drag myself to go if any of my favorite stars (wow...whatta "wussy" term huh!?) are in it. And yeah, I'd watch it even by myself. I've done it several times and have had bad experiences, if you would ask. So yeah, I will never enjoy the movies if I wasn't with my friends (or my Dad, the movie-natic) or if I didn't have a bucket of popcorn with me.

Basically, I didn't enjoy "Ocean's Twelve". That's a blant statement but I would rather not watch it if given a choice. What's up with the camera shots ala Blairwitch Project?! Made me dizzy. And I don't get it why sometimes the story would be fast forward and the next thing you know, it would be rewinding past events. Ryan commented, "Is this movie downloaded?" But you see, I'd rather keep up with these annoyances to give the movie a chance to reach its climax. And, just like probably everyone else, answer the question "Who's the twelfth?" (It's Catherine Zeta-Jones.) Unfortunately, the climax was shown in slow mo'. If there's one thing I really found funny about the movie is the idea of Julia Roberts pretending to be Julia Roberts! Haha! With the special participation of Bruce Willis as himself. That's got to be my favorite part in the movie. Haaayy...if it were not for my aunt (who really wanted to see it), for Brad Pitt (hottie!), the bucket of popcorn, the picturesque view of Italy and the chance of wearing my favorite green jacket inside the air conditioned theater, I wouldn't even bother check the film out. I am no movie critic. I am probably not just a big fan of "mind game" movies. Just my two cents worth.

Coffee Break!

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We found out that a cup of coffee is still good even without your notes and modules at hand.

My Bio friends and I went out last night to have a life apart from med school. We stocked our big bags and piles of handouts at Chris's trunk and headed for dinner and the theater. Charisse, Ajeng, Tinz and Rey were also with us. We ate together, talking about old and new acquaintances and or issues--in and out our havens. It's always nice to recall moments as if they took place yesterday. And realize how fast time flies. After the movie, unsure where to go next and coffee shop-hopping, we finally decided to drop by at Chicco's workplace where we knew we would be most welcome to hang out. The employees at DeliFrance were rude enough to put the chairs up and blast their sounds (so we couldn't hear each other out aymore) to shun us poor medical students looking for some moments to unwind. So there, the girls ended up having coffee and cake while chit chatting...with Erin taking the lion's share of the juiciest kwentos.

Rrrrah!

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I'm officially a MRAZanatic!

We've been playing Jason day in and day out at Grace's car, singing his songs sunset till sun dawn in boring lectures or while walking through the hallways...

and I think he looks like Simply Red. Hahaha!

Here's one.
TONIGHT, NOT AGAIN
The night.
She brushed her hands upon my flushed cheek
Smelled of childhood remnants of a dusty weeping willow
Clouds soothe, Shredded by the calico
Were oh so vast and quick as I was on my own now.

This time like every other time I believe that I never find
Another sweet little girl with sequined sea foam eyes
Ocean lapping voice smile coy as the brightest quiet span of sky
And I'm all alone again tonight not again, not again, not again.

And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely.

Still I'm unable to inhale all the riches
As I'm awkward as a wound on my bones
Still I've got cobblestone joints and plate glass points
As I'm all by myself tonight not again not again

And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice. Lovely.

Well if you should nervously break down
When its time for the shakedown would you take it
It's when you cry just a little but you laugh in the middle that you've made it
And don't it feel allright. and don't it feel so nice.
Lovely.

Say it again. Lovely. So lovely. to do it again
Again. Loving again. It's coming again.
Lovely.

Annoyance 002

1. FAVORITE BREAKFAST IS
-anything with hot coffee...

2. THE MOVIE I'VE WATCHED MOST NUMBER OF TIMES IS
-forrest gump

3. LEAST FAVORITE SUBJECT IN SCHOOL
-right now, prev.med...

4. IF YOU COULD HAVE ANY CAR IN THE WORLD, WHAT WOULD IT BE?
-i still like chevy venture

5. FAVORITE HOUSEHOLD CHORE?
-anything with water...i hate changing sheets

6. WHEN I WAS A KID I DREAMED OF BECOMING
-an astronaut

7. FAVORITE COLOR
-brown

8.FAVORITE PERFORMERS
-wally and jose! hehehe

9. WHEN I DIE, I'D RATHER BE CREMATED OR BURIED?
-cremated...may columbarium na kami 'no! hehe

10. IF I COULD REPEAT COLLEGE, I'D TAKE
-probably journalism or mass comm...but i wouldn't trade medicine for anything!

11. THREE THINGS I CAN'T LEAVE HOME WITHOUT?
-cash, mobile, bag

12. FIRST THING I WOULD BUY WITH MY FIRST SALARY
-food...dine out

14. IF A BOOK WAS MADE INTO A MOVIE, WOULD YOU STILL BOTHER TO READ THE BOOK?
-yeah...I've read Forrest Gump and it's way different from the movie

15. SPECIALTY IN COOKING?
-omelet hehe

16. PRESENT CRUSH?
-james

17. FAVORITE HANG-OUT?
-COP! coffee bean!

18. BEST PLACE TO SHOP?
-none in particular...anywhere with good finds!

19. FAVORITE PLACE IN YOUR HOUSE?
-CR

20. WHAT TIME IS IT?
-2:43 in the morning

21. WHAT KEY IN YOUR KEYBOARD DO YOU USUALLY PRESS?
-enter?

21. YAHOO OR HOTMAIL?
-yahoo

22. LEFT OR RIGHT?
-right

23. BLACK OR WHITE?
-black

24. BLACK OR BLUE PEN?
-black

25. SANDALS OR SHOES?
-either

26. COLGATE OR HAPPEE:
-colgate...oh man! this is getting boring...

27. FLOSS OR TOOTHPICK
-i have a hard time flossing...

28. CHOPSTICKS OR SPOON AND FORK?
-depends on what chunk you are eating

29. JOLLIBEE OR MCDO?
-mcdo, for caramel sundae...altho jollibee has more variety

30. COKE OR PEPSI?
-acckkk...i don't drink soda

31. SAN MIG LIGHT, LONE STAR LIGHT OR REDHORSE?
-i don't drink

32. HOPE OR CAMEL
-don't smoke

33. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO?
-my tita irene

34. LAST PERSON WHO TEXTED YOU?
-ajeng

35. LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU LAUGH/SMILE?
-my cuz Ryan

36. LAST PERSON WHO MADE YOU CRY?
-no one

37. THE LAST TIME YOU CRIED?
-tonight

38. WHY DID YOU CRY?
-i had a freakin' headache and i couldn't get myself to sleep!

39. FAVORITE CHOCOLATE?
-it's official...Brown and Halley's Almond Roca

40. LAST PERSON YOU WERE WITH?
-tita irene

Annoyance 002

Pambihira...tagal ko nang di nagse-survey ah! This one's from Er-er.

1.WHAT DO YOU LiKE DOiNG WHEN YOURE DEPRESSED?
-sleep! ugh, what better thing to do?!

2.WHAT DO YOU WANT TO NAME YOUR FUTURE CHILD?
-candace colleen and/or luis francisco

3.WHAT MAKES YOU NERVOUS?
-hmmm...not really nervous, but i worry when i unintentionally make people angry at me

4.WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
-a nice, mushy movie...(i know!) and sometimes, when i'm overwhelmed by emotions

5.WHAT'S YOUR MIDNIGHT SNACK?
-coffee coffee coffee <~~hooyah!!!

6.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF HOMOSEXUAL MARRIAGES?
-totally uncool

7.MOST MEANINGFUL AND MEMORABLE THING SAID TO YOU?
-i'm not good at taking these...

8.BEST GIFT (MATERIAL) YOU HAVE EVER RECEIVED?
-duh? cash!

9.SHOW THAT MAKES YOU LAUGH.
-eat bulaga!

10.YOUR WISH WHEN YOU LAST BLEW A BIRTHDAY CANDLE?
-i dont remember blowing a birthday candle on my last birthday...

11.CLOSE YOUR EYES FOR A FEW SECONDS, WHAT DID YOU SEE?
-nothing

12.DO YOU LIKE BUYING BRANDED CLOTHES?
-yes...but not most of the time. i'd be happier to see how i can make the most out of my cash

13.DO YOU KNOW YOUR BESTFRIEND'S FRIENDSTER PASSWORD?
-yes...i did her account

14.DO YOU FOLLOW FASHION TRENDS?
-only when the trend reflects me

15.HAVE YOU EVER RAN AWAY?
-haha yes...pero papansin lang

16.HAVE YOU EVER LITERALLY BEEN A SHOULDER TO CRY ON?
-yes...and i'd gladly give my big bear hug (trademark)

17.HAVE YOU EVER INTENTIONALLY IGNORED SOMEONE? FOR HOW LONG?
-yes...until now (3 years?)

18.HAVE YOU EVER GONE ON A ROMANTIC DATE?
-haha...that's all

19.HAVE YOU EVER RECEIVED A LOVE LETTER? WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME?
-yes...naiyak ako sa diri! puh-leaseeee!!!

20.HAVE YOU EVER WRITTEN A LOVE LETTER? WHEN WAS THE FIRST TIME?
-haha no way!

21.IF YOU COULD SPEND A WEEK ANYWHERE, WHERE WOULD YOU GO?
-Israel?

22.IF YOU WROTE A BOOK, WHAT WOULD IT BE ABOUT?
-redemption

23.WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR PAST?
-i don't have a past to look back to bcoz the future is too wonderful to even bother look back

24.WHERE DO YOU USUALLY GO SHOPPING?
-rob place, greenhills

25.WHY DID YOU ANSWER THESE?
-stress reliever! (same thing, Er)

26.DO YOU SPEAK OTHER LANGUAGES?
-filipino, english and a little spanish (altho i really wish i could do better)

27.DO YOU THINK YOU LOOK GOOD?
-feel good, look good...that's the spirit! haha!

Okay...'nuff of this. I'm out to study (again)!

Ode to Loriepot

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I know this is over due already but...

Thanks Lor-E for putting up with my cyberboboness and for helping me out in putting up this site!

Miss you E-gurls...see u on Saturday!

Blag!

Wala lang. I didn't have a good start this morning but my day actually ended up well.

Last night, I was too tired and sleepy to study for my practical exam in Anatomy. (We were out on Sunday to go to church, to eat lunch out and then to go to the mall. I brought my cuz Ryan to Go Cart ride and fo' sho' he had a blast!) The very last thing I could remember was leaning down my study table while memorizing all the muscles' OIA (origin-insertion-action...and whatnots) and finally fell into a deep slumber. I left the lights on and woke up at 5:30 in the morning, wasted on the sofa. I decided to go to my room and continue sleeping since I didn't have an early class today. Not having a good decent sleep, my Mom served me a really sucky breakfast that I just had to guffle on (I didn't wanna offend her...but please don't ask me about it anymore). But alas! The winds changed when I got to school..

I am happy with my shifting exam score in Histology (which was given today) and I am satisfied with my practical exam score in Anatomy. I was scared to death of the thought that I might have a mental block with all the bulk of information that I had to remember! My friends and I went to study at a coffee shop (where my Ka-Bio Chicco works...yey! Free cake!) and I was almost gonna pass out with glucose overdose! Coffee and cake...sinful.

Nonetheless, I had a good day today. And so this is what the Bible means when God said that "The ending is better than its beginning". Hehe!

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My friend Dave is updating his blog. I'm so proud of him. Haha! Punk!

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I am not a big fan of groupies. Not a big fan of touchiness either. No connection there...just blurted it out. ;p~

Yellow Journalism

I am pissed when people hyperbolize "how bad" the Philippines has gotten. The prevalance of kidnapping, snatching, poverty and all the nasty stuffs! People with such attitude make this place ugly. Why can't people learn to suck up emotions that aren't helping them to progress at all? And not be resigned to "fate"? It ain't too bad, for me. I believe that our country can get through hard times...just as the tsunami-stricken countries could. (How nationalistic can I get?) Bad times aren't bad at all. It opens many opportunities for learning and faith. The pressure determines your substance. And as the saying goes, "Walang maloloko kung walang magpapaloko". I wish people were wiser each day so they would have a better and more positive outlook in life each time they wake up in the morning...(somethin' wrong with my grammar?)

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I hate it when people say "I don't know". Isn't there a way for you to know?! And putting on the "pity" face makes it even worse. It's bad enough that you don't know.

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Anatomy and Neurology are my favorite sciences. I am saying this because I am really enjoying Doc Lok's lectures. His Neural Plasticity lec didn't sound like a Physio lec. I felt like coming to a Psychology class and/or Personality Development Seminar. ;p~ However I love Neurology, I still find it too hard.

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Finally, a song from Jason Mraz...

Sleeping to Dream

I'm dreaming of sleeping next to you

I'm feeling like a lost little boy in a brand new town
I'm counting my sheep and each one that passes

is another dream to ashes and they all fall down.

As I lay me down tonight,
I close my eyes and what a beautiful sight

I'm sleeping to dream about you
I'm so damn tired of having to live without you

But I don't mind
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired

I found myself in the riches

Your eyes, your lips, your hair

Well you were everywhere
But I woke up in the ditches

I hit the light and I thought you might be here
but you were nowhere

You were nowhere at home

As I lay me back to sleep
This love I pray that I can keep

Sleeping to dream about you
And I'm so damn tired of having to live without you

But I don't mind
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired

It's just a little a lullaby to keep myself from crying myself to sleep at night

Sleeping to dream about you
I'm so damn tired of having to live without you

But I don't mind
So I'm sleeping to dream about you and I'm so tired

Yesterday, Today and Tomorrow

I have just realized that they're not at all far from each other. Probably people who have been sleeping a lot are missing out on this beautiful fact. It could be a good cure for impatience. For people who are hopelessly waiting.

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My Tita Irene (with my cousin Ryan) arrived the other day. She came back to the 'Pines after, what, more than 10 years already. It's my cuz's first time. He's liking it so far. But he must be getting bored sometimes coz he's got no one to play with (but me). Today, we played...ugh, some card game (can't actually remember how it's called haha) and I beat him on my first try. He sucked. I asked him if he wanted to go to Avilon Zoo and he said, "you have a zoo in this country?" Hehe!

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I didn't come to my morning class. I didn't get any sleep since the guests have come and only got to do so a few hours before coming to my afternoon class. I had fun with Dr. Lokin's lecture on Spinal Reflexes! Also today (or errr, yesterday), I saw the most adorable pair of zygomatic bones! That's good enough to make my day...even without my caffeine dose.

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Ugh!!! Keane is killing me! Their music is bee-yoo-tee-fool!!! Thanks Jerb! I got a handful of new CDs from my ugliest brother...haha!

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My tita just got down to get some chow. She and Mom just finished talking. Wala lang. Now, Mom's here. It's another "tomorrow" coming to life...*sigh*

*****

Ain't it ironic...? To utter a cuss word right after making the sign of the cross or touching the crucifix. Impatience doesn't go with religiosity.

Annoyance 001

1. How are you today ?
- good...5 shifting exams down...2 more next week!

2. How was school?
- I don't really care about the stress...as long as I get out of the place at the end of the day!

3. How do you feel right now?
- really sleepy...

4. What are you planning to do later?
- sleep...duh?

5. What did you eat for lunch?
- some boring chicken teriyaki from Cafe Dapit (sorry Charry and Pat, I alway make bad choices!)...don't serve me with chicken breast, puh-lease?!

6. What did you drink?
- iced tea worth (would u believe?) Php 5.oo

7. What's the most "thing" that you want it to happen? right now or sooner?
- I don't understand your grammar

8. What are you listening to right now?
- the noise of the fan...

9. What do you want to do right now besides chatting?
- I don't feel like chatting at the mo'...I'm sooo sleepy, leave me alone!

10. What's the most memorable memory in your life?
- memorable memory?! can u repeat again?!

11. Who are you thinking of right now?
- James...wondering how his exams went (anu ba 'to?!)

12. Who's your gf/bf?
- Ha?! Eh di si James!! Mwahahaha...

13. Who's your crush?
- James! *perky mode* ayan, gising na ko...

14. Who's next to you right now?
- no one

15. Who made you laugh today?
- "erik santos"

16. Who made you mad today?
- ugh...no one?

17. Who made you feel special today?
- no one...boohoohoo!!

18. Who did you receive emails from?
- a lot of people...fans (joke)

19. Did anything bad happened today?
- not to me...

20. Did anything good happened today?
- but obkors! Each day is a blessing 'ika nga ni Lor-E! Today, I had glazed donuts and some iced milk! Is this The Life or what?!

21. Do you want something to happen right now?
- yes...zzz....ngorkkk

22. Do you want to hug someone right now?
- *mushy*

23. Do you want to kiss someone right now?
- ho-hum...

24. Have you ever lied to your loved one by saying i love u..?
- no, that's silly...

25. Have you ever had a crush on a guy/girl for 1,2,3,4 or more years before?
- Haha yes!

26. Have you ever kept your feelings about something or someone even from your bestfriend?
- but obkors!

27. Have you ever been to a party without parents?
- yes

28. Have you ever told your crush you like him/her?
- no...why would i?! (Thank you!!! Hahahaha!! Sounds familiar? *wink*)

29. Have you ever felt that you'd rather die, than see the people you love suffer?
- no...hehe

30. Are you happy with who you are now?
- I am happy...but of course, no one wants to settle for anything less. I am still being perfected and I am waiting for that moment (when Jesus comes).

Friendster Survey

Friendster has a new look. I don't like it. It doesn't look as fun as it used to anymore.

And I was thinking...probably I'd stop annoying people with my surveys on the bulletin board. After all, I feel sorry for those people who have to scroll through the pages only to find spammers with sucky surveys to post...probably like mine. Heehee. This is the official farewell of The Survey Queen...only to Friendster! Hehe. Welcome me, Eblogger!! This is my own space anyway. I can spill out my two cents worth for all I care! Keep it or trash it. If you choose to trash it, then leave! I know you'll be back soon. Mwahahaha!!! *evil*

Sleep Deprivation Syndrome

I never thought there was such a thing. Until I had it myself.

Today, I just had my very first ECG experience. My Mom was worried about my frequent "light headedness". Akala nya siguro, tumitira na ako. Hehe. It's still kinda bearable though, but she wanted to make sure I don't get her high cholesterol level and my Dad's hypertension. So that was the doctor's assessment.

They were blaming it on my caffeine overdose. He actually wanted me to give up my addiction. Decaf na nga, diluted coffee pa! I even had to listen to his "study tips" and it almost made me puke...oo na, freshman na nga--don't rub it in! Pambihira. For a moment, I visualized the doctor as a monster trying to steal my cup of coffee. No way!

Anyway, he gave me prescription for sleep inducing tabs. I'm kinda scared to take them. Mahirap na nga ako gisingin, baka lalo pa kong di magising! I'd probably opt to drink some choco drink before I take the tabs. Perhaps Serotonin works. I'm abusing my body, actually. After caffeine has done its job of keeping me up (so I could study even after a very exhausting day), I'd take in Serotonin to keep me down naman.

As he said, hindi parang on and off switch ang katawan ng tao. True. I can't help but drink coffee and stay up late till wee hours of the morning, so I'd probably just get quality sleep whenever I can. Even in boring lectures? ;p~

He is positive though that I'll get over this anyway. What makes first year in medicine stressful is the student's own fears and expectations for himself. Who would want to fail on his/her first year? No one. That is the reason why there are more than 400 first year medical students who are working their sorry butts out to get good grades. It's not only my syndrome. It could also be yours.