Unscrambling Scrambled Eggs

It's just like spilling a cup of coffee. Life, unfortunately, doesn't come with a trusty "undo" button. Who knows exactly what the future holds anyway? Only The Super Supreme God (haha sounds like pizza!) does. And I've realized, because of our being clueless, we most of the time find ourselves in "trial-and-error" situations. Although I've lived to the principle of "When in doubt, don't", sometimes I still get myself into irreversible damages...that I have to bear with for as long as I live.

I think it would be much easier to carry on if only efforts were involved. Like for example, failing an exam. Even if you bleed your anal columns of Morgagni to death (yknow the feeling of trying to vent your regrets in every hole of your body?), you wouldn't take back what has come to pass. However, you "suck it all up", dust yourself off, try better next time and kick them asses who thought less of you during those moments. Much easier, right? Than if efforts were coupled with emotions. And I'm talking about when relationships are involved.

It's easy to get attached with people when you open your avenues. I don't find it hard getting along with people who share the same "frequency" as I have and are pleased to have me around. But once something gets in the way, then I have a problem. Sure, I can forgive uncalled for jokes (like somebody calling you a hoe or something to that effect), I can respect insistent opinions (you can insist all you want...for all I care) and I can forget about "laglagan" moments. But I can never assure a hundred percent return. Once I've proven that this person doesn't deserve a part of me and that he/she doesn't honor this piece of me, why would I bother share myself with that person? There are some other worthy people who will appreciate and value me and my wholeness.

I don't think this is in any way a form of regarding yourself highly. You just can't waste your time with people you aren't comfortable with anymore. Of course, I believe in second chances. If it weren't for this second...and third...and fourth...and so on and so forth...chance that God has given me each day, I would still be of no value up to this day. But if second chances aren't working however you have settled all your past issues, and if your eforts aren't taking you to any place better than you were before...then maybe it's just time to move on with your friggin' life eh? I hate the feeling of getting stuck with somebody you don't feel right with anymore...just coz you feel worthless when you're with that person.

It's better off cleaning up the mess and making another cup. Or perhaps crack another egg. Do yourself a favor. Move on.